How do i survive or overcome this situation is it impossible?

Firstly, you are not old by any means. Second, You need to quit feeling sorry for yourself and start taking little steps toward your goal. All things don't change overnight. You need to stop thinking that people are only being nice because they feel bad for you, I am sure thats not true and I'm sure that some of them would have turned out to be great friendships. Finding a place that offers successful therapy would benefit you greatly. Until then you need to pick yourself up by your bootstraps and start making small adjustments that will make your life better and happier. Good luck.